Was he flirting?: update. (Well, kind of an update)

This morning I went to the church that I spoke about in the “Was he flirting” post. I was hoping to have a new church experience, be around fellow young people in church (I’m one of the few young people at my current church), and get a chance to talk to Sam again.

The service was, well, have you ever seen the movie “Saved?” Yeah, it was like the high school auditorium scenes; heavy on the “praise and worship” and the “who’s down with G-O-D.” Okay, it wasn’t that bad, but the service today did spend a considerable amount of time singing “praise and worship” songs. There was a time in my life where this kind of service was what I needed in my relationship with God, and while it’s a perfectly legitimate way to worship the Lord, I’m just not in that space anymore.

On top of this, the pastor made thinly veiled swipes at Catholics for their reverence for the Virgin Mary. His brief mention on this issue allowed the congregation to misconstrue that Catholics worship the Virgin Mary on the same level as Christ, which either means the pastor has a deep misunderstanding of Catholicism or purposely prevaricated the issue—either doesn’t sit well with me.

Plus, I didn’t get the feeling that this could be a church that I would feel comfortable attending in regards to my sexuality. I also have no interest in doing mission trips in foreign lands (but I’m suppose to think about it apparently), or watching a video recording of several strangers’ baptism.

So yeah, I doubt I’ll be going to that church again. And to top it all off, SAM WASN’T EVEN THERE. So not only did I spend my Sunday at a service that I didn’t enjoy, feel comfortable at, or feel would help me “grow in Christ,” I didn’t get to talk to Sam. Also, since I won’t attend this church, my chances of seeing Sam greatly diminish.

All of this put me in a funk for the rest of day, and revived my perennial doubt of having a romantic relationship any time soon. No worries, I’ll probably be in a better mood tomorrow.